LYRICS
99¢ DREAMS
this won’t be easy
this is gonna be
beautiful
i’m done pretending to be
what you want me to be
what you want me to be?
in the end i can’t fight what i am
in the end
i don’t fit with all of this
i get a grip
in the end
true to my human
has proven to be
the hardest thing
true to my human
has proven to be
the hardest thing
all of my days
convince all of my brain
that i can’t be a dreamer
if i want to survive
better swallow my pride
hide that i’m believer
i’m a believer
in the end i can’t fight what i am
in the end
true to my human
has proven to be
the hardest thing
true to my human
has proven to be
the hardest thing
LOS ANGELES
don’t eat me alive
i can feel your bloodlust
came to you hungry
wanting to thrive
turn me into stardust
hundred dollar bills in a backpack
put it in the bookshelf
like a criminal thats never going back
oh my god
what do you want to give us?
what do you have?
you have it all
what do you want to show us?
don’t you know you run the show
running straight down sunset
hope the gutter catch my fall
what if it’s all for nothing?
oh my god
driving through the desert with tears in my eyes
honey i made it
woke up in the midst of sunrise
oh my god
hundred dollar bills in a backpack
put it in the book shelf
like a criminal thats never coming back
oh my god
los angeles
what do you want to give us?
what do you have?
you have it all
what do you want to show us?
don’t you know you run the show
running straight down sunset
hope the gutter catch my fall
what if it’s all for nothing?
ISLAND
if i burn one more bridge
i’ll be an island
hands against my ribs
endlessly fighting
for me
you don’t wanna know
wanna know me
i have teeth that tear
through your memory
go on without me
know you could’ve had me
my legs are stronger than your habits
feet planted
let you have it
my legs are stronger than your habits
legs planted, let you have it
let you have it
i’m on an island
what good it is
to say something?
but i can’t say nothing
even if it means
you’re gone completely
match to kerosene
watch you leave me
my legs are stronger than your habits
feet planted, let you have it
let you have it
i’m on an island
SLEEPING ALONE
gotta have you
gotta need you
gotta want you
hold you, hold you tight
gotta soothe you
gotta treat you
treat you, treat you right
you can’t act like
you don’t feel it anymore
i see you
they see you
it’s not a secret
anymore
it’s not a secret anymore
you never acted upon it
knowing that i want more
i’ll be honest
lately i’m wide awake thinking
as you lay there dreaming
why are we sleeping alone?
why
why are we sleeping alone?
can't you feel it
fill the whole room
can we resume
from the night
we were dancing
in your kitchen
and i woke up by your side
i can’t act like
it never happened
anymore
you know it
i know it
now the past is an open door
spin me around again
we’re here encircling
this internal war
on constant repeat
everytime we meet
what you waiting for, huh?
you never acted upon it
knowing that i want more
i’ll be honest
lately i’m wide awake thinking
as you lay there dreaming
why are we sleeping alone?
why
why are we sleeping alone?
BLINDSIDE
that’s when you shatter your mirror
that's when she’s in the backseat
that’s when you step away from me
asking me what it all means
i should’ve said don’t look back
i should’ve said let me blindside you
i should’ve said let that shit shatter
i should’ve said, i should’ve said
i should’ve said it
won’t you just come and lay by me
i want to know how you breathe
you steal my grace as you deflect
i’m asking you what it all means
i should’ve said don’t look back
i should’ve said let me blindside you
i should’ve said let that shit shatter
i should’ve said, i should’ve said
i should’ve said it
two steps forward, five steps back
i just wanted something good
i think you thought you could
wasting, wasting in my head
the things we didn’t do
before we fell through
i should’ve said don’t look back
i should’ve said let me blindside you
i should’ve said let that shit shatter
i should’ve said, i should’ve said
i should’ve said it
TO FEEL
i don't know how to feel
i don't know how to feel about it all
call me your baby
i don't care about your past
and you don't care about mine
i've got secrets in my chest
i'm hiding out
and now isn't the right time
i don't know how to feel
i don't know how to feel about it all
cause i don't know how to feel anymore
with my defense down i see your faults
your weaknesses
and mine are surely showing
i think we both should stop overthinking
it makes a mess out of nothing
here i am and i'm telling you it's not too much
hand on my heart when i say it's just not enough
i don't know how to feel
i don't know how to feel about it all
cause i don't know how to feel anymore
HOME
i left you wrong so many times
you left me gone, i always wonder why
i'm not convinced it's 'bout the time
i stand alone but you're in the room
wrapping my arms around a faded fuse
i can't waste one more day of youth
on you
don't wanna stay here
don't wanna go there
with you it's nowhere
seems to be somewhere
with you it's nowhere
seems to be somewhere
but i need a home
i never chose you
you chose me
now my heart's seamed straight to my sleeve
know that i'll never let you lead
we keep on playing with grip
lacing my shoes as you start to slip
know that we'll never be done with this
don't wanna stay here
don't wanna go there
with you it's nowhere
seems to be somewhere
with you it's nowhere
seems to be somewhere
but i need a home
ROOFTOPS
you don’t know how hard it is to
get it off my mind
i’ve been trying lately just to
suffocate the time
i know she probably looked real
pretty in that dress
i know i missed my chances
but i still think i’d be best
sometimes i just wish that you would
pick up your phone
call me to santa monica
tell me you’re alone
i’d say “oh you’re crazy”
you’d say “maybe you’re right
but i just need to see you tonight”
i’ve never been to rooftops like that
i’ve never climbed from greenpoint back
and you will always be hard to define
but you’ll always be the chance that I missed
i remember thinking
life is beautiful with you
walking around williamsburg with one damn shoe
open the kitchen window
climb the latter to the roof
you sat there saving me
when they all hated me
like only you could see my truth
i’ve never been to rooftops like that
i’ve never climbed from greenpoint back
and you will always be hard to define
but you’ll always be the chance that I missed
we stared at manhattan
i saw forever with you
but now forever’s for you and her
i cannot blame you
i was always running
i know i wore out your shoes
thinking is this real?
is this sincere?
is this the right thing to do?
i’ve never been to rooftops like that
i’ve never climbed from greenpoint back
and you will always be hard to define
but you’ll always be the chance that I missed
YOU FOREVER
i've been having pills and cigarettes
for breakfast
here i am now
and i'm right back where i started from
chasing dreams uphill
feels like i will
til my casket
and my breath is out
but there's only one way to run
feel like i'm not enough for anyone these days
oh i love you more than ever these days
worry about you more than ever these days
falling into habits i'm not sure about these days
i said "i feel alone
i feel so so alone"
you say "i feel alone too
i just don't talk about it
please don't desert me
no one can be your everything
i love you forever"
hold me in embrace
as my heart aches
and the time ticks
you say your hands are getting old
but your mind is such a loaded gun
you know you're my breath
when nothing's left
you're my godsend
i hope you live to see me
embody all these dreams
and know it all was worth it
feel like i'm not the one in your heart these days
and i know that he'd rather have it that way
see you growing more timid each day
turning into someone i don't recognize these days
i said "i feel alone
i feel so so alone"
you say "i feel alone too
i just don't talk about it
please don't desert me
no one can be your everything
i love you forever"
time and distance is the culprit
and we count on these telephone lines
to tie all the love we have into a union
killing me softly every time i hear your voice
feeling your energy resonate through me
you bring out the child in me
you bring out my greater mind
all the time
makes me wonder all the time
why can't love be enough?
i said "i feel alone
i feel so so alone"
you say "i feel alone too
i just don't talk about it
please don't desert me
no one can be your everything
i love you forever"
i love you forever
HOW YOU LOVE
the fears that coat my wounds
are those made by every human thats ever left
gone without trace
only leaving tracks in the silence
i’ve learned you cannot grant others
the power to decide if you can be loved
in the same way i cannot reject vulnerability
entering my body to
oxygenate this blood
but you promised, you promised
watch my walls
crumble down
why don’t you
face to ground
is this how you love?
how is it i’ve forgotten
everything that
the psychic preached
a cleansing of my body
as its been trespassed with all you falsities
i’ve learned you cannot grant others
the power to decide if you can be loved
in the same way i cannot reject vulnerability
entering my body to oxygenate
watch my walls
crumble down
why don’t you
face to ground
is this how you love?